Belief is not merely an agreement with facts in the head; it is also an appetite for God in the heart.

- John Piper

October 2014

Lately, I’m finding myself praying: ‘Abba, into your hands I entrust my body, mind, and spirit and this entire day—morning, afternoon, evening, and night. What ever you want of me, I want of me, falling into you and trusting you in the midst of my life. Into your heart I entrust my heart, feeble, distracted, insecure, uncertain. Abba, unto you I abandon myself in Jesus our Lord. Amen.’”


At the risk of pulling for sympathy or worse, appearing super spiritual, here’s the backdrop to my praying of late (my wife posted this on our personal Facebook group page for our praying friends):

On David: David did get a blood test today and it’s inconclusive. Dr. Morgan thought it was a couple days too early. They did the band on the arm test to see if spots showed up and they did, so she’s thinking it’s dengue, in the early stages. She says the worst days should be Thursday and Friday. His temperature is up and down – all over the place and his headache behind the eyes is constant – a deterrent to sleep. So he’s in the bed and keeping well hydrated.

On the Car: We got the estimate on fixing the car. They have to send part of the engine down to BKK to see if it can be fixed. Minimum will be 25,000 Baht, ($800) but they said prepare for 35,000 ($1100) if it can be fixed. We swallowed hard. There is a way through, just don’t see it yet.

On the water pump: Right now the guest house has no water but we have cold water in the house. There’s not enough pressure for showers, but enough to do dishes etc… hopefully, Thursday, Oody will show up as promised with a new pump – or one that works. Don’t know the final cost.

On the house: We are still gathering information on what it might look like to take over the foundation. Time is getting short to find our way through this. Still don’t know the cost. (Our options are limited. Either we form a holding company that holds the title or, we take control of the foundation and assume it’s debt and activities in the country to protect the title. In either case, we are distracted from our purpose for being in Thailand and the financial cost is expected to be quite high.)

On the change over of our visas: We went to the Consulate and got the necessary papers notarized. Now we need to get David well so we can sit at Immigration. We are doing this because LA Embassy gave a year long visa to David and the same to me and the kids – only the kids and I have to leave the country every 3 months. We are changing the visa so we’re still under David but don’t have to leave the country every 90 days.

Thankful For:

Energy for David to get the consulate stuff done.
We’ve had seamless transportation so far by folks sharing their extra vehicles.
Thankful to have water at all.

But mostly thankful that our times are in our times are in His hands. Psa. 31 was just what I needed.

Thanks again for keeping up with us.


 

ruthless trustAccording to Brennan Manning, who penned the above prayer, “uncompromising trust in the love of God inspires” us toward gratitude. Ruthless Trust in God’s love opens us to thank him for the spiritual darkness we sometimes encounter, for loss of income, for painful arthritis, relational struggles, and so on. It’s not about learning more about God but trusting what we already know of Him through his Word and reality in our lives.

 

Trusting that God truly loves us frees us to accept the struggles and pain in life as blessings, as answers to our deepest prayer of wanting to love him most of all.

 

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